A star us born actually tackles one of the biggest issues.. and stigmas.
After a heavy night last night, falling asleep in my clothes & potentially loosing all control last night. I can tell you that personally this is something I've struggled with for years. At one point I tried to stop drinking, and i succeeded in cutting right down.
More recently, with added pressures I feel myself being pulled back into this zone.
The zone of not knowing when to stop drinking and in fact.. drinking more and more. In a way maybe subliminally I'm using alcohol to numb down pain. The pain I'm even maybe not aware of consciously.. because I can tell you hand on my heart! I'm happy. I'm the happiest I've been in my life. I feel more focused, driven. Yes I have moments but don't we all. The point is.. I sing.. I dance. & I'm happy savouring life right now.
The undeniable fact is though.. I'm going through a divorce, this has been a long process. Where by my relationship unfortunately deteriorated. It broke down Christmas of 2017. We all have hardships. From divorce, to mental health. From illnesses like Cancer to having limbs amputated.
We have homeless people on the streets and the refugee crisis. Everyone in some way has a cross to bear.
A cross which can haunt you. Maybe suffering from fertility problems or you just keep getting knocked down. It feels like there's always something. Something to rear it's ugly head and say... wait a min. I'm not done with you yet!
If anyone struggles with lifes pressures and finds themselves reaching for the bottle, I hear you!
I'm working on this side of myself by pursuing other interests, absorbing myself in education and also self development.
Just like when I quit smoking years ago, drinking has become a nasty habit. It can destroy your health and it can destroy your life.
So I'm taking control. For 2019. 2019 is to be the year I make massive change. Yx
In this fight together.